The “Wait, What?” Moment

You know how some people are always into self-improvement? Always listening to motivational talks, always taking courses, always striving for some “next level”? Well, that’s been my husband for as long as I can remember. Almost ten years we’ve been married, and he’s been on this constant quest for personal growth, devouring self-help materials and attending workshops.

I’ve always been supportive, of course. He’s a driven guy, and I admire his dedication. But to be honest, I never really saw myself on that path. My shelves are overflowing with fantasy novels, mythology books, and anything and everything related to conspiracy theories (don’t judge!). I’m fascinated by the unknown, by the possibilities of other worlds, by the strange and unexplained. While he’s buying self-help books, I’m buying books that spark something in me – stories that transport me to different realms or challenge my understanding of reality.

nd I always thought that’s where my strengths lay – in the realm of ideas, of creativity, of exploring the “what ifs.” I envisioned myself more as an operator, someone who could navigate complex situations and find innovative solutions. I’m in charge of operations in our business after all.

But then, something shifted. Like, seriously shifted. I was crewing for the Millionaire Mind Intensive program in the first quarter of 2023, and that’s when it happened. I suddenly felt this urge, this almost inexplicable pull, to enroll in the Quantum Leap program. It was being offered and, though I heard it being offered many times in the past, it just… resonated with me at that moment.

And so, the series of programs began in the last quarter of 2023, and my journey of self-discovery officially commenced.

Let me tell you, this journey has been a rollercoaster.

There have been days when I felt incredibly motivated and accomplished. I realized that this wasn’t just about self-improvement, it was about self-discovery. It was about peeling back the layers of myself and finally understanding who I am, what I want, and what truly makes me happy.

And then there have been days where I wanted to throw in the towel and just binge-watch movies or read my comfort books. It hasn’t been all sunshine and rainbows.

Being vulnerable? Yeah, that’s still a work in progress. I cringe every time I share my thoughts and feelings openly. I’m used to being the one critiquing, not the one being critiqued. And honestly, it feels weird! But my husband is so supportive. He gently points out areas where I can grow, and I’m slowly learning to receive that feedback with grace.

And let’s not forget the lows. They still happen. Some days I feel like I’m back to square one. I still get that familiar knot of nerves when I’m about to step outside my comfort zone. I still catch myself justifying inaction with that old familiar excuse: “I’m too busy.”

Sometimes, I even look back and wonder if I’ve made a mistake. Would I have been happier if I’d just stayed in my cozy little introvert bubble, indulging my love for fantasy and conspiracy theories?

But then I remember why I started this journey in the first place. It’s about growth, about becoming the best version of myself, and ultimately, to contribute to others in a meaningful way.

For me, this rollercoaster is okay.

Because even though I’m still learning and growing, I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I’m proud of the small steps I’ve taken, the tiny victories I’ve achieved.

This journey is a marathon, not a sprint. And I’m in it for the long haul.

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